|Abstract: ||這本論文是我身在性交易後追社工的位置上，遇到了2015年《兒少性交易防制條例》修法的大事，發現自己有陰魂不散的家長／權威議題。因此，開始書寫我和性交易少女的故事，為了要更貼近少女，才返身寫了自己的父親與母親，關於他們怎麼生成、組成家庭後的關係，怎麼影響我走上社會工作這條路，以及成為怎麼樣的一個生命陪伴者。原生家庭讓我從家內向家外尋找無條件的愛，遇上了基督信仰，在教會經歷了人的限制，卻也是因為前男友祈生的包容與寬恕讓我經歷 神的愛。經歷了愛，才發現自己即使不完整、也不完美，卻仍然不捨地鍥而不捨相信愛、尋找愛，跟這群性交易少女沒什麼不同。
The motivation for writing this essay began with the discovery of my lingering authority issue, when I worked as a follow up social worker for youth sex workers, and witnessed the amendment of the Child and Youth Sexual Exploitation Prevention Act in 2016. I therefore began to write the story among girls who involved in sex work and me. In order to be closer to the girls, I wrote about my parents, their life stories and their relationship after having a family, and how it influenced me to take the road to social work, and made me become the life companion I am today. The family of origin let me seek unconditional love outside of the family, encounter Christianity, and experience limits of humanity in the Church. But it was because of tolerance and forgiveness from my ex-boyfriend Qi-Sheng that allowed me to learn the love of God, acknowledging that although I myself was neither complete nor perfect, I still constantly believed in love and looked for love, which made me not any different than those girls in sex work.
Through there is a difference in social class and other aspects in the life between those girls and me, I realize that despite all the differences not only between the path we took during the preparation for the high school entrance exam, but also between the way how we use our bodies based on our social class, it doesn’t diminish the possibility that we are able to accompany each other. By analyzing carefully using narrative method, I am able to discover that those girls and I are resisting in our own way, resisting discipline such as “Women can only live in a certain way” or “How to live a good life in a certain way”. Through the writing of this essay, I also worked on my family story that has not yet been fully told before, so that I could face my own life honestly, and stepped down from the government granted position as a middle-class female social worker. It allowed me to be with those girls sincerely and comfortably. Although there is a great difference between how we use our body in regard to both lust/ sex and work, there are still some shared experiences of our body which bring our lives closer. In fact, in compare with the use of the brain, the use and the position of the body manifest its own value, as well as the standpoint of life more sincerely and directly. As a youth social worker, the actual application should not be ignored.
The greatest discovery of this essay is that being a social worker who “protect” teenage girls within the government structure, the most important thing is to be an adult who can face him/ herself honestly, believes in love and will to live out love through life. In addition, through the process of the actual application in life, I am also able to deeply understand that the possibility of life itself is unlimited, and there is no certain way of life that indicates a good life. By acknowledging this, we can only truly appreciate those girls who work in the sex industry, who strive to live and dare to love and to hate. And no matter what life itself looks like, it should be something that deserves to be appreciated.